Destination: Denver, CO
Been a while. I’ve been in Kansas City recovering from my last trip. This time, I’m heading west with a final destination of Seattle, WA. My new road dog (Hobbes) and I are heading to the Gender Odyssey Conference which is gonna be super rad.
We’re starting our journey from the truck stop east of Lawrence, KS! Been here for a couple hours with no luck, but we’ve made our signs. It’s storming at the moment so we’ve set up camp inside of a McDonalds to make sure our stuff is charged, blog, and update rideshare stuff.
Excited to get started on this journey! I’ll try to update every day.
Van Gogh once wrote, “If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.” You can replace the word paint with any dream we might pursue. There will always be conflicting voices within us—those that whisper about the great dreams waiting to be realized and those that scream that we lack the talent or capacity to achieve them. Part of that process is deciding which voices will inform us.
Neither Courage Wolf nor Calming Manatee were doing much to help my anxiety, but I knew they were both on to something.
So, I created Calmage Wolfatee.
'but I am too weak to be your cure.'
Guernica // Brand New
The struggle is fucking real. Before you use the word mutilation to describe what I’m doing to my own body let me use the word torture to describe what society is doing to it. Bladder infections are not fun, but being verbally and/or physically harassed is so much worse. Check yo damn privilege. #mineschecked #ftm #mtf #gender #fuckthebinary #gendernonconforming #chickswithdicks #anddudeswithtits #wheniwritemybookitshouldbecalledthat
I’m so tired of people asking me what’s wrong when I tell them I’m depressed. Clinical depression is more than just any particular issue. It’s more than sadness or anxiety. It’s my damn brain and a chemical imbalance. It’s a large grey cloud obscuring the bright sun. You can’t just cheer me up on these days. It will pass, and the sun will shine again, but in the meantime just be with me. There is nothing to solve, no problem to fix, just a bunch of fucking chemicals fucking with me even on days when I would otherwise feel like skipping. Just be with me.
So if you see me on a normal day, and I seem absurdly happy for no reason - it’s because I enjoy the sunny days because they make the cloudy days worth it.